Death has fascinated me for a long time now. Initially, it was just about the idea that my days on this planet was numbered. And for a while there, I imagined how it would be a twisted sense of championship to not allow for the uncertainty that death hung over all of us and maybe, actively do something towards it instead. However, you see, I was also not that brave!
So, I grew up, year after year, pondering about that subject; much like (I think) how one would ponder about love. In a manner of speaking, death was my first love. And it would continue to fascinate me. Until it came around to claim people in my life.
Reading The Fault In Our Stars was not so much about reading about two teenagers with cancer falling in love with each other, as it was about reading about John Green’s idea of what it feels to be obsessed with thoughts about the one eventuality that plagues our existence.
Agreed, he has a beautiful take on how it is to live with cancer without being overcome by it. To keep your sense of humour, when life itself is draining out of you. But who really cares about all that. How does it matter that cancer kid X is worried that all she ever did was ‘fight’ cancer? How did that ‘affect’ this world? How did that help (or hurt) the rest of the human race? Incidentally, those are also some of the concerns that the protagonist ponders about. Quite frankly, I love the book for how thoughtful Hazel is, even in her most difficult period. And for that matter, so is Augustus. And somewhere between all this is their favorite author Peter Van Houten, who is battling his own demons.
We love them for their wit. We love them for how much they deserve that bright future that is cruelly denied to them. We love them for showing us that some infinities are bigger than others. We love them for teaching us that, pain demands to be felt, but that does not mean that we need to let it take over all that we are and all that we’ll ever be!
And in between all that, they move us to believe that the great Bard got this one thing wrong – the fault, in this case, is definitely in our stars!